To catch up, for any newcomers- at the end of January 2024, I entered the hospital to wait for a heart transplant. On March 20th, I was told there was a heart, and surgery took place that afternoon. Due to complications, I was placed into a medically induced coma for a week. Unfortunately, they tried to wake me up but I kept sleeping for a little more than another week. When I woke up, I had a tracheotomy tube in my throat, my legs didn't work...
One of the problems with my health, is that I never fit into the average mold of symptoms. That is why, even though my ejection fraction is not extremely low, I am listed on the heart transplant list. This is why they can't keep me in the hospital indefinitely - because they can't find a reason to keep me there. I am basically healthy, except for my heart. So, I have to wait at home until l need to get my heart shocked back into rhythm.... 3...
I began writing this album while in the hospital for 5 weeks and I was able to participate in FAWM (a yearly online event in February). I use music to help regulate my emotions. So, it was necessary to be able to create music while sitting in a white room, with a constant hum and a disgusting sanitary smell. Because my shortness of breath has increased over time, I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to sing as powerfully as I felt I needed to...
"I'm Still Here" was an announcement that Titanosaur is still alive and kicking.... then , just to emphasize the point - out comes "What's Your Pleasure"! The lyrics for "What's Your Pleasure" were written after watching the Hulu version (reboot?) of Hellraiser (very disappointing). And the music was actually kicking around for a few years, I just never had lyrics that fit, until now. To add fantastically flavored icing, Kazuki Hiratani added a...
